[artwork] ride on!!!

by eb-epistles ~~

[Epistles] you can say fuck you and i can say that back at you

everything have an ending
whether it sad or happy
one will never know

life, it just a lie, a dreams, very long stupid dreams
or should i say, it a big fucked up game
i couldnt save it, couldnt load it either
dunno where the fucking checkpoint also

for me, i never wish i was born..
for what purpose ? or even for what reason ?
should i know what in store for me ?
i guess, even the wisest cant answer that ..

have faith, have faith, have faith, have faith, have faith !!!!
shall i seek faith, or shall faith came to find me ..
i'm in a very deep shit, lost.. how should i find the right path..

i believe in god.. and i believe in god promises..
one of that is every single soul that breath,
will stop breathing.. and when that day come..
where should i go ?? what should i do ??
why am i have to go through this ??

i think i'm not too good too be in heaven,
i think i'm not too evil too rot in hell either..

this uncertainty.. urghhhh~~

i had live for quarter century now ?
what has i done, what i'm going to do ?
just live to see the curve in others lips while
the curve just upside down in mine ?

in the end, i want to share something..
to someone that i know wont ever betray me..
i guess that someone is too much of a wish for me.. heh~
life is just a big fucking mess up that i have to go through..

i dont care about money!! give me thousands, millions ..
i dun have shit to buy, i dun have any interest ..
fuck if someone ask me what would i buy if i have a lot of money..
i cant think of anything.. i dun have desire over anything..
i dun have purpose.. i dun have reasons..

well, life is just a fucked up thing..
and it do suck the more i live in it~

[Epistles] philoshoper advise

My advise to you my friend, is getting married.
if you find a good wife, then you are happy..
else, you become a philosopher..

[Epistles] Snow White And The Magic Mirror

Once upon a time there was a snow white who just wake from her deep slumber by a kiss from prince charming. she so happy once she open her eyes she see a very handsome prince right in front of her and all the dwarves overjoys as the curse is lifted

Hence, she goes back to the prince castle and live there.. and the story starts here.. the story about the magic mirror that cause all the trouble..

As soon as the magic mirror knows that Snow White’s cursed has been lifted.. he search with endlessly effort to be with the Snow White.. As he is not as perfect as he used to be, broken and smashed by the wrath of the dark witch, nevertheless, the strong will of his heart to be with Snow White never wither..

Day by days, weeks by weeks, he travel and travel, search and search for the whom he really adore in his entire life.. Finally in one night on the late falls, he finally find what he looking for, Snow White..

He begged for Snow White to accept him.. an old broken mirror who only good at talking somehow manages to win Snow White heart.. so she takes the mirror home with her, and hang him on her wall.. the mirror was so happy that time, he couldn’t ask more in his life..

Everyday gazing at the girl he adore, singing her beautiful melody and tells her how beautiful she look everyday. With simple thing like that, he manages to mend the cracked, and shine brighter that he used to be..

However Snow White thinks of the mirror not more than her property. She still plays with the dwarves.. she lives the days like she use to.. Without fail, the mirror keep adore Snow White for a very long times..

Come on days, the mirror realize what he was doing and his love for the Snow White nothing more than a love of a possession to his master.. the mirror feels like betray and decide to cast away all of his feeling and he starting to shut his mouth, day by days the number of adoring rhymes begins to fades.. Until one days, the mirror silence from all of the singing he use to sing in hope that Snow White realize what she has done, abandoning the one who really adore her..

During the second falls, Snow White realize changes about the mirror, he was not as joyful as he used to be, Snow White begins to worry as she missed all those beautiful rhyme she used to had, now becoming less and less and starting to disappear..

She ask the mirror,

“oh, magic mirror, why don’t you be like how you use to be”

Almost cry by the question, he realized that Snow White miss him, the mirror replied,

“nothing my dear, it just I’m very busy lately”

“oh magic mirror, don’t you be silly, how could a mirror like you being so busy ? “ ..

Since then, Snow White begin to change, she pays attention to the mirrors more. But it is too late for the magic mirror. His magic begin to fade, as the glass begins to cracked.. Snow White hunger for the sing, the jokes, the adoring the mirrors showered her.. the hunger turns to anger, she yells, she abuse the mirrors, she push him to do what he used to do.. the mirror did what he used to do but heartless.. As long as his princess is happy, he willing to takes all the Snow White anger.. however, Snow White fail to notice the mirror beginning to crack little by little..

As one night come the third falls since the mirror found her, his magic is near depleted.. he turning back as the first time he meets with Snow White.. he is no longer magical mirror, slowly becoming like an ordinary mirror.. and he say to the Snow White..

“I had showered you with all my kindness and my love, all I ask was a single appreciation, what should I do to earn yours Snowie ? “

“I have hang you on my wall, I have picked you from the dirty place you use to live, isn’t that enough to satisfy you?” …

“But Snowie, could you treat me gently, like a person that you love?”

“Don’t be silly, you are just a talking mirror.. Just do what you do best.. talking, could you say or sing something beautiful for me before I sleep.. isn’t that what your existence purpose?”

With the pale smile, and a broken feeling, the mirror gather all his might and magic, to sing Snow White one last song.. A very beautiful song that Snow White fell asleep with it..

And then the next day comes as Snow White wakes from her bed and she look on her wall, the mirror has gone, and what remains is the piece of the glass shatter on the floor..

Snow White realize that the mirror has gone forever.. as she gathered the broken glass, she accidentally cut her finger and bleed.. and she remember one of the rhyme that the mirrors sang to her last night..

“love is like collecting piece of broken glass,
Some people can collect all of them,
Some people can’t,
But while collecting them, there always someone who get hurt”- magic mirror

:)

[Epistles] we are a freedom writer? are we?

we wrote so that people will read
and the freedom of writing seems to hate us
our word will never be from our heart

as a writer
I'm chained by thousand of restrictions..
I'm cuffed by angers, negative criticize and hated looks..
I do have my feeling for me let it go..
I do have my heart i need to burst..

Hence,
cuffed my mind..
chain my heart..
as freedom is no longer mine..
and satisfaction is no longer my desire..
as it bound of restriction..

as the tears of a writer are not shows in the eyes..
it shows on its rusty pens..

since when i despise writing so much..
the memory of it seems so dim..

p/s: a full understanding of this articles is needed before questioning the authors..

[Artwork] eb-lovestory

"hehehe~ i just install back my AP CS2, kinda old skool, everyone seems using CS3 or CS4 rite now, but i still stick with CS2.. and why is that ?? i dun have da installer.. duh~~

anyway.. just sketching something.. my gurl and i both has been sick this week.. and everywhere we go.. they seems to ask.. is it H1N1 ?? well, if it is that flu, will i and my gurl be loitering around and coughing at everybody rite now?

for sure the gov will take us inside "test lab" and stick us so someone else dun get this b4b1 flu wouldnt it ?? anyway, take care of ur body and have a nice day..

hereby i present eb-lovestory" - i'm too lazy to write another comment so computer magic shortcut" ctrl-A, ctrl-C, ctrl V" from my devvi wil do

[Love Letter] Appreciation

when you receive a gift from someone, u should appreciate them
i know this seems kinda late, cause of a lot of stuff happen that keep hindering me to do so..
i wish i could do sooner...

appreciation is a word to thank someone or something
da someone is my little marshermerrow..
da something are my birthday cake and 1000 love poem she gave me

i really love both of em... both my marshermerrow and my gifts..
i wish you could make me some more in near future..
a million thanks to you for the present...
and sorry cause i really bad at showing excited expression..
but i do really love em..

da 1 note per day :
4th July - when someone cares it is easier to speak, it is easier to listen, it is easier to play, it is easier to work. when someone cares, it is easier to laugh
5th July - Love bears all things, believe all things, hope all things, endure all thing, love never ends.
6th July - Where there's great love, there are always miracle - willa cather
7th July - i keep thinking of you every few minutes all day.
8th July - not only do i want to spend today with you, my love, but tomorrow, the day after, and the very last day i'm given
9th July - In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities
10th July - Although i have lamp and fire, stars, moon and sun to give me light, unless i look into your eyes, all is dark night - Bhartrhani
11th July - Love may not make he world go around, but i must admit that it makes the ride worthwhile - Sean Connery
12th July - You have intensified all colours, heightened all beauty, deepen all delight, i love you more than life, my beauty, my wonder
13th July - Love comforteth like sunshine after rain. - Shakespeare
14th July - Whoever lives true live, will love true love - Elizabeh Barreth Browning
15th July - If you find it in your hear to care for someone else, you will have succeeded - Maya Angelou

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and my favorites quote so far is "9th July - In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities "
i couldnt agree more to this one..
love make someone strong, make someone ready..
by loving you i keep myself strong against every challenge..
love grew someone, mature their mind...
by loving you i've grew for this past 2 years..
you give me hope to live, and future to catch into..
i put my mind into having a brighter future..
i grew strong each and every day with you by my side..
something that seems so dim so impposible for me to have 3 years ago..

when you have some one you care.. you change..
i change.. love change me into a better man..
you change me into a better person..

in front of my monitor is me typing
inside of me is my heart beating
deep in my heart carved your name
never shall it lost and never shall it wither..

i pray to god to ease the road we are taking
to make us together close to each other forever
to make us believe in our future to be brighter
to live our life to the fullest
and to prosper in everything that we do..
with a good mind, health and great friends..
let us live without a tiny regrets..
i love my hun with all my heart..

a million thank for such a wonderfull gifts

your love

eggblood